In my part of the world there is a very wind-intense storm blowing through right now. Often when there is strong wind I can feel energy being kicked up just like debris when a storm front moves in. Right now it feels like an energetic dust storm, where you can’t see anything but darkness and are continually pelted with sharp painful jabs trying to exfoliate your tender skin.
I bought into the feelings yesterday. Assumed they were my own. Assumed they meant we had big problems surfacing and things were on the verge of breaking. The amount of arguments and unpleasantness thrown back and forth was much more intense than we have experienced at our house in quite awhile. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, anxiety, frustration, and apathy kept popping up over and over and over. We’d think we had smoothed things out and then they would rear their ugly heads again and it would feel like we were starting all over. Crashing. I was starting to wonder if it was even worth trying at all. Trying ANYTHING. It all just seems to fall apart and never works out. Why even bother?
I felt like just curling up in a miserable ball this morning and not doing anything. Especially not taking care of myself. And then I expanded my feelers a little. Was this an isolated incident just here at my house, or is this feeling much bigger than us? Oh, it is MUCH bigger than us! It’s the difference between the water main breaking at one house and flooding everything inside, and a tidal wave rushing in and submerging an entire area. We’re definitely being swept up in a tidal wave right now.
So why does this matter? If it’s an isolated incident between two people or a group of people, what is generally most helpful is acting to work through the problem, come up with solutions, and develop a plan for moving forward. However, when it is an energetic tidal wave the most helpful things involve acknowledging what is coming up and letting it go, finding your center, trusting that it will move through in its own time and just focusing on riding the wave without drowning. And especially, especially not taking it personally.
I felt like just curling up in a miserable ball this morning and not doing anything. Especially not taking care of myself. And then I expanded my feelers a little. Was this an isolated incident just here at my house, or is this feeling much bigger than us? Oh, it is MUCH bigger than us! It’s the difference between the water main breaking at one house and flooding everything inside, and a tidal wave rushing in and submerging an entire area. We’re definitely being swept up in a tidal wave right now.
So why does this matter? If it’s an isolated incident between two people or a group of people, what is generally most helpful is acting to work through the problem, come up with solutions, and develop a plan for moving forward. However, when it is an energetic tidal wave the most helpful things involve acknowledging what is coming up and letting it go, finding your center, trusting that it will move through in its own time and just focusing on riding the wave without drowning. And especially, especially not taking it personally.
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