I've been taking nearly nightly epsom salt baths at night to help me relax this past week. Attempt to relax at least. Tonight in the bath I worked myself up really well thinking about our pond plans for next spring (we have ducks and they make big messes!) and what we're going to have to buy and what it's going to entail and what I'll have to figure out. It wasn't pretty and I was definitely NOT relaxed.
An interesting thing about this painting is that I had a plan about how I wanted it to look. The water further downstream was going to reasonably and realistically flow past the words and off the page. But while I was painting that vision disappeared and I just put paint where it felt it should be. And when I stepped back I was kind of disappointed because it looks as if the water is flowing up into the sky or something unrealistic like that. And at first I was frustrated at myself and tried to figure out how to fix it. And then I realized that that was part of the message too. Just trusting and focusing on the next step has the potential of taking me far beyond my reasonable and realistic vision of where I am going. And since that reasonable and realistic vision often freaks me out, it's very possible that the path I'm being led on would shake me deep into my roots if I knew where it ended up. But maybe, just maybe, that's where I have the potential to be. Where I am going to do what I came here to do. And thankfully, I don't have to draw the map of how to get there. I just have to take the next step and trust.
Is there any part of your life that would be helped by letting go of the big picture and just focusing on your next step?
For anyone who may want this painting in their own space as a reminder to just take the next step and trust, I made a few products on Zazzle. If there's a way you would like it to be with you that you don't see I'd be happy to make it for you!